I got some free time, finally~ lol so I decided to write my thoughts on here.

I was thinking where my life is going. I feel so stuck, in every which way. I started to intern at this Wedding fashion table linen and special events place, called Wildflower Linen. Working here is alright. I dont think I am gaining any thing from working at the warehouse. But I thought it would be good to gain some sort of experance. Well, thats what I do mostly. working full time, and taking 1 class at fullerton college. working+ school doesnt leave much time to hang out with friends, But I manage some how. What I am losing is sleep.  I am mostly cracked out time to time... I havent been going out to church either. waking up on Sundays is a pain! thats is the only day I get off. AND I WOULD LIKE TO SLEEP UNTIL 5!! lol... I know I should go, but half of me dont. Half of me dont want to, and half of me just want to sleep. There isnt a part of me that says, NO Katie, you HAVE to go. Well some body pray for me. Or take me out to church... lol sigh... I have nothing else to say... writing in xanga makes my head hurt... too much thinking. I dont think anyone is going to read this but I just felt like rambling...  

I'm bringing Xanga back - drop a comment if you're with me!

yes, I should trust in God. Just like how it says in our dollar bills, "In God We Trust". But sometimes its hard, you just get so chought up taking care of things, that you just forget to trust in God. If at all in fact that is possible. I can state that it is, I just have so many responabillities that I forget. God is sometimes never thought about through out my whole day, until I want to ask him to help me. Isn't that the most self centered thing you ever heard? But its true and I admit it. So, with all this school delama(?) I find myself trusting not only what I am only caplible of, but only other humans and once I failled to hold on to God. I think my brother told this to me a hunderads of time or maybe even millions, but today, I seem to fully comprehand it for the first time. Maybe its that this is totaly out of my hands or anybody for that matter. Trusting in Him is what I strive for this year and hopefully I will put forth my life in his hands... :)